Who is there to change your tyre now…

It is raining heavily again since morning… Woke up late today cause was writing emails for my upcoming project and invoice to my former company.

Riding in the heavy rain for few days has cause water to seeped into my lights and remote. Not sure how long more before they spoil.

But I cannot stop working, even for a day. Else I won’t be able to pay off the loans I took for your sake…

While waiting for the rain to stop, I tried eating something. But ended up I can’t eat anymore after a few mouth…

Not sure how long more before my appetite comes back to normal… even my ‘neh Neh’ you like to play with so much is now gone… I’m now as skinny as I was during my army days when I’m 20 years old.

Not sure whether you will feel heartache the next time you really take a good look at me now…

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Now that I’m going to start pushing Ah Ji into a corner, these questions came back into my mind again – Whether it is time for you to know the truth…? Does it benefit you to know that you have misunderstood me so deeply? Will you be happier knowing I’m still your dear who loves you deeply…?

I have imagined myself emailing you, telling you how sorrie I am to have hurt you and how much I missed you etc, or just a simple “I will be waiting for you”, or even post the link to this blog in it… But in the end, I chose not to do it… because the most important thing to me is not whether you still loves me, but it is I still loves you, and I don’t even want to take any risk in creating any quarrel between you and Kenny over me…

If Em Yeu feels the same way towards me as I do to you, our heart will be together no matter how far we are apart physically… that is what I now choose to believe…

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But really had quite a bad day today. My rubber tubing punctured for the 2nd time within 2 weeks

Guess my rear tyre is really wore out although I have just changed it just 2 months ago. Well, guess I have simply ran much more orders than most people for weeks now, so my tyre are gone in no time:

So missed my night shift and went home to change my tyre instead, as I still have a spare one which Yong jie gave me the last time he went to gambas with ah ji.

But whenever I work on my bike, I always end up thinking of you and your bike… I can still remember the time when your front tyre punctured on your way to work, and I run over to you under the PIE flyover in between BB and JE… then I helped you get a new tubing from Yusri and change your punctured tubing at WG…

Who is there to change your tyre now…?

I know Em Yeu is a very independent and smart woman. You can simply learn whatever you want online through YouTube videos. But I just don’t like it when you have to use your dainty hands and fingers to do such manual and laborious work…

I rather your hands stay clean, dry and warm. I will worrie that you will cut or pinched your fingers. Every injury you have, no matter how small, pierces my heart…

When I was changing the tyre, my right wrist hurt again. Even whenever my right wrist hurts, it also reminds me of you… do you still remember how I got this injury from? It was from a fall after I accompany you to Bukit gombak mrt station to meet rayden to cut his hair…

As well as many times you have accompany me to the acupuncture doctor.