02/01 Packing for Dubai Instead
It was a last minute decision to follow Elsa to Dubai again. In fact, too many things are happening each day. Almost everyday has been so drastic and heretic for me for the past 1 week since Xmas…
1st, we were so happy at genting and then ice magic together…
Just 2 days later you quarrel with me over a miss call…
Then the video call which turned everything upside down…
Followed by Elsa’s decision to divorce me and spending Xmas talking about details of our divorce…
Became penniless overnight and going to be homeless in 2 weeks time, so had to rush to earn as much money as possible and look for a room to rent…
Missed celebrating Xmas, your birthday and new year countdown with you and the children…
Had to keep what you did to me and my divorce a secret and suffer alone while distancing myself from everyone in order to protect you..
You suddenly messaging me and asking me to be with you after my divorce but ended up kicking me out of your house and life…
Elsa suddenly ask me to stay until Feb or March for her to get mentally prepared for me to move out of our house…
Elsa asked me to go to Dubai together with her as our last vacation as husband & wife…
All these has happened within 1 week. Too fast and too much for me to take it actually… and now, I only have 1 days time to prepare and pack for our 8 days Dubai trip.
I took out everything I have packed into my small luggage bag that I have packed over the past few days, and tuck my luggage bag into the corner of my spare bedroom where I once hide your green luggage bag. The one you didn’t bring onto the plane during your last vietnam trip and I took it home, and left it outside your BB house door a few nights ago…
While I was still dazed by everything that has happened, Elsa cheerily repack her large luggage bag to put in my stuff and thick clothes for the next 8 days as it is still winter season and quite cold in Dubai.
The biggest question I have the whole day today, is whether I should inform anyone about my sudden departure for Dubai and absence from work for the next 8 days starting tomorrow?
Would you even notice if I am suddenly gone…?
You have already asked me to get out of your life and leave you alone that night when you kicked me out of your house… if I have informed anyone, it would sound more like I’m trying to attract your attention using my trip to Dubai as an excuse…
Well, maybe I should stop thinking that you care about me anymore. if you cared, you wouldn’t have hurt me this way in the 1st place. If you cared, you wouldn’t have kicked me out of your house that night. If you cared, you wouldn’t have asked me to get out of your life and blocked my number…
Yeah, most probably you wouldn’t even care if I just disappear tomorrow. why am I making myself even more miserable thinking about this…