01/01 How about Our Dubai Trip?
Woke up late this morning after Elsa cried herself to sleep on the sofa in my arms last night after asking me to continue staying in the house at least until Feb or March when she is more prepared to see me move out. We also agreed to postpone signing our divorce papers till then.
So for the time being, earning money for my room rental is not as urgent as before, since I’ll still be staying here at least for the next 1-2 months
But I still continue working today as I still need to save up money all over again, and continue to pay the bills myself as all household bills are under my name and I have just paid the December ones, pretty much emptied out whatever I have left in my own bank account especially after our last genting trip…
Then ah ji messaged me in the afternoon to borrow $400 from me
When I met ah ji under his block, he told me that he has spent a lot on 26th dec for your birthday celebration, as well as for the new year countdown last night, that’s why he is short on cash for his rental.
I felt bad towards ah ji. Cause I know if we have not quarreled, he wouldn’t have to spent his room rental money for your birthday and new year countdown. So using you as an excuse, I wanted to help share his burden cause I felt so grateful towards him for helping celebrate your birthday and new year countdown where I couldn’t be there…
But he kept telling me that you are not worth it. He kept telling me that it is your fault that now I lost everything because of you. He has always scolded me for spending so much on you no matter how many times I told him it is out of my own willingness to share your burden, cause you need to save your own money for the new house and children.
But to him, you are an ungrateful woman whom didn’t appreciate everything I have done for you… I always just thank him for being on my side and asked him not to think that way about you…
So this time, I want to share your Kor Kor’s burden. I’m really grateful towards him for supporting you, being there for you after you asked me to get out of your life…
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When I reached home after night shift, Elsa looked much more cheery, totally opposite from last night.
After I finished bathing, Elsa signaled for me to sit down on the sofa cause she wants to tell me something:
She wants me to reassure her again, “So you not moving out next week right? You will stay on till at least Feb or March right?”
I nodded.
She asked again, “Then how about our Dubai trip? Can you go with me?”
This was kinda unexpected, as she has told me that she has already informed her dance instructor partners that I won’t be going cause I had an affair and we will be going through a divorce…
Seeing how I am hesitating in my reply, she added, “Anyway you are not going to move out of the house next week. You have also already paid for the hotel and air tickets. We have not went overseas for 3 years cause of COVID. And we have planned this trip for so long…”
Finally, she plead, “Since we are going for a divorce, we can do it after we come back from Dubai. Go with me to Dubai can? We should at least have our last vacation as husband & wife. Cause there is no more Next time for us…”
How can I reject the plea of a woman I’ve already hurt and felt so guilty towards…?
So I finally gave in…