Em Yeu, are you in Vietnam?
It is exactly 3 months ago since the video call that turned our love upside down…
Do you still remember how we quarreled that day? Do you still remember the harsh and hurting messages we threw at each other, all because both of us are desperate and scared to lose each other…?
Right now when I think back, I really regretted everything I said to you back then. Because I felt wronged. Because I was so angry and sad at the same time, at why you didn’t believe in my love for you despite all the time we have spent together…
The words I regretted most, is the 1st and only lie I have ever told u – “I will stop loving you from now on”…
I missed you exceptionally lots today. It has been only 3 months since we were separated, but it felt like I’ve lost you for 3 years… whenever I think back at the half year that we have spent together, it felt like the time we had had been too short, too fast, and there was never enough time to be together…
I still bring your bottle of green tea every single day… I’m still wearing the smiley grey shirt you bought for me at genting… I’m still playing your favorite song whenever I’m on the road….
Nothing has changed for me towards you… you are still the person on my mind throughout most of the day. The pain in my right hand and in my heart, constantly reminded me of you…
Guess this is the punishment I deserved…
*****
Bump into Thao this morning. She had a flat front tyre and was trying to do something about it cause she has an order in her bag.
I stopped and took a look at her tyre. Completely flat. According to her it was still fine this morning, so it means high likely she had a punctured inner tubing or else the tyre won’t be that flat.
She did not have a spare tubing, so all I can do is to use my pump and pump her tyre up. After pumping, her tyre pressure did not drop as fast as I feared, and I asked her to hold on to my pump, so that she can keep pumping air until she can reach the nearest bicycle shop to change tyre.
But just before she ride off, she told me something that brightened up the rest of my day. She told me that she has messaged you and tried to call you, but it is not Singapore dial tone.
She said “I think she bring her children back to Vietnam cause last week school holidays”
Em Yeu, are you in Vietnam?
No wonder it seems like you disappeared. No wonder you didn’t reply to mingyi and Edmund. It must be because you are back home in Vietnam. I was so relieved when I heard that.
When I share this news to the rest of the guys, they are relieved as well. For the past week the guys has been worried about you, wondering what happened to you that you didn’t reply to them, and even worried that Ah Ji has poisoned you with his lies even against mingyi and Edmund, like what happened to Allan.
That’s when I reminded them, “Sweet Mother is not the type of person to burn bridges and cut off friends just like that. Just wait for her to be back to sg”
Although Mingyi has already found a new room at Bukit batok today and don’t need to ask for your help anymore, all of us are glad that we finally have some news of you again.
*****
The new room mingyi found is at Bukit batok blk 110. It’s at a good rate at only $650 per month for the whole room.
So after work, he followed me back to my place and pack up his stuff. Also informed Elsa so that she can be relieved.
For now, I have to be careful with Elsa as she doesn’t know that I taken a 16k debt for you, and I am absolutely in no situation to rent a room if she decides to sign the divorce papers tomorrow…
But it is my own choice, for rejecting the chance Elsa gave to stop the divorce and the debts I have now…
So Em Yeu, if you finally know the truth one day, remember that it is not your fault, so don’t ever blame yourself, okie?