Congrats Em Yeu
The rain today seems exceptionally gloomy and sad. Perhaps it is because of my heavy heart and sadness, thinking about whether or not to let you know the truth…
To me, what is more important is your happiness and your well-being, and telling you the truth doesn’t seems like it will be good thing for you…
Do you really need the truth?
Do you really need my love?
Do you really need me back in your life one day?
Questions like these just simply filled my mind the whole day. Questions which I couldn’t answer by myself…
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Ran into Tim tonight while I’m waiting for orders at 256. He updated me that his property friend shared another way to check whether you really gotten the house. And that is through IRAS
Anxiously, I tried the IRAS method. And indeed it worked:
Congrats Em Yeu 🎉
I sincerely mean it from the bottom of my heart… I really feel happy for you
At the same time, it also marks the end of our fight for your freedom and happiness….
While I am really happy for you, I suddenly felt sad for myself. Although I started the fight together with you… although I have stood by you for most of journey to get your house… although I have shared most of your smiles, tears and frustration throughout this fight…
In the end, it is not me who is by your side to finish the fight. It is Kenny…
In the end, to you it is not me who helped you most in this fight. It is Ah Ji…
In the end, to you I am just an penniless liar whom you regretted ever loving me…
In the end, I’m of no use to you at all. I can’t even make you happy. And now that you have everything you need, there is no longer any use for me in your life from now on…
Maybe, I should face reality that our time together for 6 months, had been meaningless to you… I have helped and given you nothing, only hurt and tears…
Yes, perhaps Ah Ji has only lied to me and not you. Perhaps whatever Ah Ji told me about what you say to him is true, and he was just helping you to get rid of me…
Perhaps he has been a good Kor Kor to you after all, or else why would you still trust him so much after everything he has done…
Perhaps to you I am the only problem all along, not Ah Ji…
Guess my decision has been made. I will NOT tell you the truth.
Because you don’t need the truth. The only thing you need now, is for me to continue staying out of your life
The only thing I can console myself with now, is at least you gotten everything you wanted – a house of your own, a husband, the children staying together, and a Kor Kor you can rely on
Em Yeu, you always say I am the smart one. But actually you are way smarter than I am. While you gotten everything you want, look at me now
I lost my marriage, lost my savings, lost my house, lost my love and gotten myself into such debts for nothing…
Anyone can see that I’m the stupid one, not the smart one
I don’t even dare to hold onto you now, as there is nothing I can do for you any more… I wasn’t beside you when you moved house twice… I wasn’t beside you for Christmas… I wasn’t beside you for your birthday… I wasn’t beside you for the new year… I wasn’t beside you for Chinese new year… I wasn’t beside you for Valentine’s Day…
And now, I wasn’t beside you when you receive your new house key
Lolz, what a joke I am. I keep claiming that I loved you so much, cared for you so much, missed you so much
But in reality, I have done and achieved nothing for you. No wonder you can throw me away so easily. No wonder you can move on so easily. No wonder you can forget all our memories together so easily.
No wonder you trust Ah Ji more than you trust me…
Guess I can make my decision now – The truth and my love is useless to you. The truth and my love does not give you the happiness you want.
Now that you have gotten your house, the only thing left for you is for Ah Ji to return you the money he stolen and scammed from you. As long as he don’t need to do that again, you will continue have a good Kor Kor that you can depend on. A Kor Kor you have always trusted and believed more than me…
I will try to call off the debt collector and let Ah Ji return your money instead. I will stop taking revenge on him for what he has done to us. I will leave him alone, so that you won’t even have to hear my name from him anymore
My role in your life has been fulfilled. Perhaps Fate has arranged for us to meet not to be together until the day we grow old, but for me to become the bad guy in your life in order for you to hate me more than you hate Kenny, so that you can forgive him and save your 15 years of marriage… so that your family can be reunited again and live happily ever after from now on…
Now my tears really couldn’t stop falling… and I just want to say it one more time:
Em Yeu, wish you happiness… I truly loved you