04/01 Dubai Day 2: Am I in Dubai or Genting…?

After a very long flight of more than 10 hours, we finally touched down at Dubai airport. From there, we have also booked a private hire passenger van to ferry 5 people with lots of luggage and head straight to the Pullman Hotel and City Residence, where we have booked our residential apartment which includes a kitchen

There is nothing much to do on the 1st night except settling down in our apartment and unpacking. The room was great, totally fitting the expectations from a 5-star hotel in Dubai. Also went to check out nearby convenient stores for ciggy, green tea and other necessities.

As Elsa was dead tired from the flight, she fell asleep very early. While I was sitting on the sofa in the living room, my mind just wander off to the small but cozy room where we hug each other to sleep during our time in genting.

Do you still remember my dear Em Yeu? The night where the children are sleeping in one bed, while we share 1 blanket and sleep in the other…? The smell of your hair, and the weight of your head on my shoulders, are still so fresh in my mind…

How I regret I didn’t get the chance to tell you how much I like the way you lie down on me when you are sleeping…

*****

On the next day, as Elsa’s performance practices only starts in the afternoon, all of us went to the Grand Dubai mall just to explore. It was huge, and so packed with people from all walks of life, activities, food and shops…

As the ladies went from shop to shop to check out clothings, makeups and bags etc, I just simply walked behind in my own world… every time we passed by a Xmas tree decoration, it reminds me of the photos I took for you, Jayden and LinLin in the reindeer sled… which I also took 1 together with 3 of you… do you still have that photo? Or you already deleted the photos with me in it…?

Now everything I walked beside a glass railing in a shopping mall, it just reminds me of that evening where you waited for me while leaning on the glass railing… that evening where you kept hugging my arm or hold my hand while we are walking around the genting mall without a care in the world. That is one of the few rare times where I see you with makeup on, almost like you have purposely dolled up just to go out with me on a date…

Even the mini amusement park in the lobby of Dubai mall reminded me of the day we spent at the amusement park together like a family… where you held my hands and we both wave at Jayden and LinLin in the queues and rides…

Why? Why do I keep missing you and thinking of you even when I’m thousands of miles from home?

Em Yeu.. how did we ended up this way…? It feels like it was just yesterday where we were still so loving and held each others hands so tightly when we are in genting where nobody knows us… it feels like it was just yesterday where we were watching the kids having so much fun in the amusement park, where I’m beside you as your man… It felt like it was just yesterday where you were shopping for the kids clothes and bought the grey smiley long sleeve shirt for me, like how a wife would do for her husband…

Was your jealousy so strong that it overshadowed every smile and happiness we had shared together…?

I had always wanted to stay by you and the children’s side…I always wanted to see you move into a home you called your own… I always wanted to see you attain happiness that you deserved… even if it means having to leave you one day…

Even when I’m in Dubai, so many things still reminded me of you, so many thing still reminded me of the smiles we shared together…

I even wonder to myself “am I in Dubai or still in genting with you…?

This is my last thought, as we alight from the cab for Elsa’s 1st day of practice…