After 1 year in Grab, I’m finally leaving…
It has been 2 weeks since I’ve applied for the HSBC account and ATM card. I’m so nervous and anxious that I checked my letterbox every day
For the past few days, I have received emails from the client for the project that will start on 2nd May. It is finally starting, and I have to start working on it soon
It also means that my days as full time grab is coming to an end…
When I look back on my year of working as a grab rider, at the start I was really just planning to lose weight and get myself into shape for 2-3 months, while I look for a company or project to work on as my 2nd career after I left my last position as a executive director of my last company.
At least, that was my original plan until I met you, Em Yeu…
To me, it felt like fate. Just before I’m going to leave last year in may, I came to know you.
Lolz, do you still remember how we first start to talk to each other?
Not sure if you still remember, we started talking to each other because of 1 bottle of green tea. I already noticed you way before our 1st conversation. I always been curious about this petite, cute, beautiful but extremely hardworking lady, but because of Charles whom kept showing interest in you, I chose to stay away from you in other not to create any misunderstandings
That is until one very hot and sunny afternoon, you parked your bike beside me. You looked tired and so drained from the heat, and walked away from your bike to pick up your next order.
After I saw how tired you looked, I looked at the chilled green tea in my hand and decided to quietly put it in your box instead when no one is looking. I really wasn’t even expecting you to know it was me. At that moment I just thought you need it more than me
But you somehow knew, that’s why you came to ask me later whether I was the one who gave you the green tea.
And that is the beginning of our friendship, and how I started bring 1 bottle of green tea just for you and put it in your box quietly every morning…
Em Yeu, do you still remember the 1st thing you bought for me in return for the green teas?
It was Tori-Q. You just put it in my box quietly as well after a few days I started putting green teas in yours… You didn’t know how sweet and warm I felt in my heart when I opened my box and saw that small packet of Tori-Q inside
That was how our friendship started. That was how our story started. Do you still remember, my dear Em Yeu…?
Slowly, I start to look forward to work more and more. Slowly, I start to keep looking for you on the road. Slowly, you became the joy and happiness in my life.
Before meeting you, I always thought I had a near complete life. 1 house, 1 marriage, 1 career and 1 path in life…
But after meeting you, I realized that there is so much more I can look forward to… a different life I can have, chance of doing business or investment in vietnam, a taste of being a father… a woman I want to love and care for…
When I 1st confessed my feelings towards you, my intentions has been honest and pure. Because I realized the more I know you, the more I want to help you, to protect you and care for you.
I have never wanted to possess you… because right from the start, I know I don’t have the right to, cause I still have a responsibility towards Elsa.
To me, you deserve a better man… to me, you deserve so much more…
That is the reason why when you decided to hold my hands and hug me, I felt so guilty towards you and yet blissful at the same time.
I felt guilty was because I know that you are going to feel jealous or neglected whenever I have to spend time on Elsa. I felt guilty because I won’t be able to give you 100% of my time and attention.
I felt guilty because no matter how much I want to, I cannot abandon Elsa and be your lawful husband or father of your children…
That is the reason why I promised you that when the day comes that you tell me you no longer need me, or you have found a better man, I would give you my blessings and leave your life quietly…
And this is another promise I always kept, no matter how much I felt wronged or wrong