Nothing is more than the Pain of Losing You…

There is a thunder storm today… like always, you filled my mind again. Now that I’ve heard that you are still working grab in Bukit Panjang area, images of you riding in the rain with your raincoat on the wet slippery road just make me worry so much…

Do you still remember how our quarrel start again just before the video call that night? It was also raining so heavily that afternoon. You had already ignored me for 2 days when I message you that afternoon, telling you that you can continue to be angry at me but put your order in my box and I’ll send for you… no matter how we quarrel, I’ll still worry whenever you ride out in the rain

But you replied to me back with your attitude asking why should I care. That starts the quarrel again that afternoon all the way to evening until the video call with Elsa to prove my feelings for you…

You didn’t know how much I regretted that quarrel… it started from something so much smaller that you felt neglected cause I didn’t spend enough time with you, and you misunderstood me for trying to keep myself safe by not answering your phone call or replying your messages in front of Elsa…

if only I have not felt angry at you for accusing me that I want my safety more than loving you…

If only I didn’t feel that you are comparing Kenny and your ex bf with me again…

If only I have not quarrel with you over messages and kept quiet to let you throw your anger at me…

If only I have ran over to your side, hug you and tell you ‘I love you’ instead and quarreling with you, would everything not turned out the way it is now…?

Em Yeu, I will not be angry at you ever again, no matter how you accused me of things I didn’t do… I do not want to quarrel with you ever again….

Because no hurt or anger is more than the pain of losing you, my dear Em Yeu…