I’ll be Right Here Waiting for You Em Yeu…
Early morning when I reached WG, I already bumped into Yifa. Remembering what mingyi and me talked about just hours ago last night, I acted like I didn’t know yifa has met up with Ah Ji yesterday morning.
But the moment yifa saw me, the 1st thing he said to me is he has met up with Ah Ji yesterday. At first I thought perhaps he has not been poisoned by Ah Ji yet, but soon I realized that some parts of his story doesn’t match up with what mingyi told me what yifa said yesterday.
Yes, I will never forgive Ah Ji for what he did to us. I will never forgive him for stealing our money that is supposed to be used for your bank loan. I will never forgive him for lying to us and use my words to hurt you so much. I will never forgive him for pushing all the blame for he did or said to you onto me…
And I will also never forgive myself for not protecting and loving you enough… I will never forgive myself to letting you get hurt… I will never forgive myself for letting you feel alone…
That’s why I’m still punishing myself…
With regards to Yifa, I won’t blame him for trying to help ah ji as he is definitely hoping to get his money back. But he will be someone I will be wary of what I say in front of him from now on.
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Ever since I know my project will be postponed to may, I missed you exceptionally… perhaps I’m not meant to leave yet… perhaps itz because you will need me soon… perhaps you will know the truth soon…
Regardless, my mind is filled with nothing else but you…
I kept staring at my screen the whole day… you have blocked me on my hp no, WhatsApp, Facebook, Facebook messenger and even TikTok… your email is the last thing I can think of that I have not tried…
My Dear Em Yeu, didn’t we promised each other that no matter what happens, we’ll face it together…? Why are you still keeping me at such a distance…?
I know nothing about your situation right now. I don’t know whether Kenny is treating you well now, or whether you are happy or not…
What if you are happy now…? Why if you have already moved on and forgotten about me, our promises and our memories…? What if Kenny has treated you well and my email will spark a new quarrel between two of you…?
Will letting you hear from me do you good, or create problems for you…?
In the end, I deleted this email draft. In the end, I always chose to do what I think is safer for you. In the end, I always choose to put your happiness and safety above my own, no matter how much I missed you…
Seems like the only thing I can do, regardless when we are only friends, when we are together or when we are apart, is wait for you to come to me…