You Should Throw Duong Already…
It is a gloomy morning again today, as it has continued raining through the night even though it has already rained for more than a day
It reminds me of the Chinese new year period where it was raining throughout a few days. At that time I was so devastated and miserable after hearing from ah ji how happy you were after you have patched back with Kenny and moved back to CCK… You were so happy that you even changed your FB profile photo to one with Kenny in it and didn’t even want your BB house deposit and rental anymore..,
At least that was what ah ji told me at that time, which I am not sure whether those are lies as well… But sometimes, I do hope that he was telling the truth, cause I hope Kenny will treat you good this time… I really hoped you and the kids can be happy, even without me by your side…
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Today, I happened to saw Ah Long on the road, just the 2 of us. Unsure what I should do, I just look at him in the eye, and do my usual salute greeting to him. I was glad when he nodded back to me. At least now I know, that his opinion towards me has somehow changed a bit ever since he confronted Ah ji regarding his lies that Ah Long has slapped and hit you that day.
Perhaps he slowly realized that I am not the liar and scumbag that night, but it was Ah ji who has been spreading lies to everyone. Well, at least it is a start. At least now he is not as hostile to me as compared to before. I’m really thankful for that
How about you, Em Yeu? Will you also slowly realized that I am not the liar…?
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I can’t help but recall what Yong jie said last night when I met mingyi and him for dinner last night after 9.30pm.
Like usual, I still cannot eat a full meal yet, and I was spending most of the time telling Yong jie most of the story about how ah ji spread details of the video call, how he stolen and scammed our money, and how he lied to both of us to break us up etc…
But surprisingly, he is not that angry after hearing what ah ji did. It seems as though he already long expected ah ji to do something like this. But I was more surprised at the next things he said:
“Lester, you should throw Duong away already!”
To him, he believes that the reason why ah ji was able to take so much money from me is because ah ji knows that you are my weakness and i will never be able to leave you alone if you is in trouble…
But little do he know that to me, you are not my weakness. You and the children have been my greatest strength and motivation for the past half year, and will continue to be when I start all over again to become even stronger, for the day you need me again… but I won’t expect him to understand it
He said, if you have decided to go back to Kenny just because you couldn’t get me, I should have let Kenny and you settle your salary problem with ah ji. Why I land myself in such a situation where I’m losing my marriage, losing my house & savings, lost you and still get myself into such debts just for a woman who has threw me away…
And why am I still holding on to a promise I made with you when you already broken yours by going back to Kenny’s side?
At that moment, I actually was a bit angry with what he said. But I managed to calm myself down, and replied him, “Bro, I know you are saying this for my own good. But since day 1 when Duong and me decided to be together, I have not expected anything from her cause I don’t have the right to ask anything from her. Everything I chose to do, is out of my own will, is out of my own wish to see her get the happiness she deserved…”
And finally, I said to him, “I have never lied to Duong. And till date I have tried my best to fulfill every single promise I made to her. And this is the biggest promise we have ever made and there is no way I’m going to break that!”
Yes, Em Yeu, you were wrong when you say I won’t divorce Elsa because I am smart, unlike Kenny. When I decided I want to love somebody, I don’t think or calculate what benefit do I get back in return for my love.
And I will only promise something that I plan to keep, regardless of what you do. You should know me well enough by now…
After we left for home, I still dropped Yong jie a message to thank him for saying what he said. I know he feel that itz unfair and meant well for me, so I can’t blame him
