Happy Valentine’s Day, Em Yeu

Here I am again, at the entrance of the dorm opposite your CCK home. It is 11.50pm. But I see the lights of both LinLin’s and rayden’s room off…

Oh ya, I heard from Allan that you are not sleeping with the children anymore, but in Kenny’s room… all kind of unbearable mixed feelings of jealousy and hopelessness sweep over me whenever I think about that…

I have always wondered, whether did you missed me as much as I missed you, and whether you will look out of the window in linlin’s room sometimes, just hoping to see me in the shadows, watching over you and the kids from afar…

Especially at a night like this. I have missed Christmas with you. I have also missed your birthday. I have missed new year celebration. I didn’t even get to have a Chinese new year reunion dinner with u and the kids…

And today, I am going to miss our 1st Valentine’s Day as well… Tears flowed down my cheeks again, as I look at the gift for you in my hands, as I watch your window…

Sorrie for the cheap pink flower… cause I am a broke guy now.. I know you never liked flowers, but it is still the most symbolic gift a man can give to a woman he loves..

And yet, I cannot give it to you personally, as I am no longer someone you want in your life from now on…

So the only place I can leave your present, is here. The place where we had our 1st hug. The place where we’ll also hate to part before you go back to the bird cage. The place where I gave you most of my good night kisses…

All I can hope for, is that it can give you some warmth when you pass by this place for the next few days… Sorrie gal, for being such a useless guy who can only do such small things for you…

Happy Valentine’s Day, Em Yeu… I love you