How is Our daughter…?
This is the 3rd day in a row that I saw u coming to work. Even if I am no longer somebody u need in your life, just looking at you from afar, just knowing you are still well and healthy, it is more than enough for me already…
You don’t know how happy I am whenever I see your pink umbrellas… seeing you has always been my greatest and only source of motivation in continue working as a food delivery rider for the past 7 months ever since we found each other.. even till now
Although now, I no longer has a choice but to continue working like this, as I have to earn money on a daily basis to cover my daily expenses, as well as a 3k debt monthly for the next few months. Itz very difficult for me to find a full time job now when I no longer have any savings to depend on till I receive a monthly cheque…
But, it is not your fault. If one day you found out the truth, that I have put myself in such debts to protect you and your house, don’t ever blame yourself, or feel that you owe me… everything I do for you, everything I gave you, is out of my own free will and choice.
I chose to love you… and I chose not to throw you away no matter what happens. And I will never regret my choice
If there is anything I regret, it would only be I couldn’t do enough for you, and my love has hurt you…
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However, today your bike has parked outside flash coffee for a long time. So Allan thought maybe the lawyer has already contacted you to collect the cashier order for the bank loan. I grew so excited at the thought! Cause that would mean your bank loan is secured despite missing 1 month of dec salary.
Hoping for the best, I ran downstairs to OCBC, praying to see you in the bank. I walked in, and tried to look for your back view even in all the cubicles and in front of the counters… but you are not there… Haiz, i was so disappointed when I saw you carrying food back to your bike after I come back up to the vending machine area.
Never mind. Tomorrow will be the 14th. By right your CPF should be in since you have transferred 1 more month of CPF to that bastard and he did transfer to Sharon, which we believe is the mookata people. Hope you will update Allan soon…
But before you left, you told Allan that you will be going home soon as the school has called you to fetch LinLin home cause she is running a fever. Also managed to see you on the road after your last delivery to IBP. I’m sure you saw me, but as usual, you don’t even want to look at me in the face…
For the rest of the day, how much I wished I can message and ask you:
“How is our daughter…?”
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