My Last Legal Loan Repayment Cleared
Today is finally the day. I have never felt so free in a long time:
Because I have cleared my last legal loan repayment – the last installment of all the loans totaling up to 15k I have taken in Jan for your Bukit batok house rental, your Mookata salary and CPF etc.
Although in the end, less than half of what I borrowed really went to you while that thief stolen the rest, I was proud and happy that despite how hard and difficult it was, I have proven to myself and most importantly, to you Em Yeu…
Proven to myself that I really love you from the bottom of my heart, Em Yeu…
It was really a long and lonely 6 months ever since I have to work day and night, no matter rain or shine in other to pay these legal loans on top of all my monthly household bills and expenses…
But I never once regretted it. These loans were something I willingly wanted to do in other to support you, and help you in securing your house, your freedom and your future…
Do I feel hopeless and helpless, or stressed out by these loan repayments during these period? Of course I do my dear Em Yeu.
In fact, I was so stressed out, together with the sadness you have thrown me away, that I lost so much weight since Jan remember?
But time and again, it was our memories and your smile, which gave me the strength to keep going, and going, and going…
And this is how I have spent my past 6 months of working day and night to pay off these loans of more than 15k… on the 7th month since you have left me…
Although… even till now you didn’t know what I have sacrificed and done for you…
Didn’t know how much I loved you…
Didn’t know how hard I have been keeping every promise I made to you and the children…
But yet, I don’t want you to know… because I didn’t want you to feel and go through what I have been through after I found out the truth, and I would rather you continue to misunderstood, hate me and threw me away
So that you can stay happy or continue seeking your own happiness – the happiness I couldn’t give you…