It is the small little things that is my biggest happiness…
I woke up late today, as I’m still having the fever, although it was a lot lower than yesterday at 37.1…
But, it is Sunday, and the orders should be good today, so I still dragged myself out of the house before 12pm.
And now that I’ve to put aside money for the HSBC account for you and the children, I need to do my best in order to fulfill my promise to you
Till now, the atm card still has not arrived… and I have been checking my mailbox every single day for the past week but closed back with disappointment… what is taking them so long?
Oh well, there is nothing much I can do when I have not received the atm card. Let’s continue to earn money 1st
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Today have to picked up an order at Joo Siah Bak Kut Teh at Blk 349.
Lolz, Em Yeu, do you still remember this place? We ate here 2 times together, but on both times I have screwed up when ordering for you cause I mixed up liver and kidney 😂
It used to be a funny memories when you are still beside me… but now, it became a sad memory instead because it was one of the many small things that I now regret…
Why am I such a useless man that I can’t even order what you want to eat properly…
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Tonight I went home early again cause I still feeling feverish.
Popped another 2 panadol the moment I finish my shower and lied down on the sofa in the dark by myself…
As I was lying down waiting to doze off, suddenly you filled my mind again. This time, I remembered how you lied down in your hammock, while I help you pluck your white hair.
I can still remember how small your head feels in my hands… I can still remember the smell of your hair, as I ruffle through your hair to look for those white or grey hairs…
And I really love this kind of moments where I focus all my attention on you only, touching you in places where I know you will only let people you feel comfortable with touch…
I can never forget the blissful feeling, as I stroke your hair and head with my hands… it is these small little things that is my biggest happiness… with my dear Em Yeu…
Em Yeu, you didn’t know how much I wanted to help you pluck your white hair for the rest of our lives… until our hair grow all white together…
But I guess… now only Kenny can do that for you…
My tears flow down again with sourness in my heart again, while the medicine weighed down my head… slowly I cried myself to sleep all alone on the sofa again…