17/03 Remembering some bits of us
Today is Em Yeu day, as I rode my bike to Westgate again for orders in the morning
But I didn’t run much today, as one of my sub con came to have lunch with me during lunch time, and discuss about some upcoming project opportunities that we are going to work on
It is until late afternoon where he finally left and I can go back running my orders
And thinking about you.
I was sending my night shift last order to Bukit Batok blk 451B, when memories flood back to me
Remember this coffeeshop Em Yeu?
Yes, it is the coffeeshop at 451C where we once rode all the way there to eat Lok Lok together… I can still remember how your eyes are beaming as you choose the dishes after we paid for the 2 person package
Watching you eat happily is always one of my most blissful moment with you
As I slowly make my way towards the main road, I past by another unforgettable place:
Remember this place? It was in the middle of the park between 452A & 453A. It is the place where we had our last quarrel just before we went on our genting trip.
This was the exact spot I was sitting, where you sat opposite me while we quarreled. It was one of the saddest moment, as you cried angrily and blamed me for not wanting what you want, and always saying I’m leaving you whenever we quarrel
I can still remember you telling me that day: “I don’t want you to leave me and stay by my side, can?“
And that was the words which made me realized you loved me more than your pride. It made me realized how much I meant in your heart. It made me realized that both of us always wanted the same thing – to stay by each other’s side…
The feeling of emptiness and sadness filled my heart again, as I took out my cigarette and stay there for a bit, remembering these bits of memories we once shared together…
Maybe you no longer remember it
And finally, just before I made my way out of the confusing Carpark, I found myself in one of the most familiar spot for a few months before that fateful Xmas…
Yes, it is the place outside your window when you were still staying at 448A. This is the spot where I have often watched your window right after I leave your place. This is the spot where I came to whenever I missed you badly
This was also the spot where I rushed over after you messaged me that you wanted me to stay and start a new life together with you, if Elsa and me really going to have a divorce…
It was the night that I regretted most. It was the night where till this day I blamed myself why I didn’t just listen to you and let you vent all your anger on me.
It is the night I regretted not explaining to you my feelings, hug you tightly in my arms and let you know how much I really loved you in my heart…
Em Yeu, I loved you. And I really missed you..
It has been such a long time since I last rode home with tears in my eyes…