13/04 It’s after 3am…

It is after 3am in the morning, and I still couldn’t get to sleep…

By right I should be tired. As I have been working on my bus depot project drawings the whole day

Although my appointment today with Jeremy is cancelled, I still continued working at home non-stop today, only taking breaks for smoke and meals…

But, I still have difficulty sleeping, especially at this time of the night where I thought of you

Where I write my daily messages to you

Where I miss you again and again

How can I not miss you? Till today, I am still writing to you

Till today, I am still smoking the vape which you taught me

Till today, your face, your smile and your eyes are still so clear in my mind

Till today, my love for you still stayed the same as much as I have always had

How much I hoped I can hear news about you again

All I want to know, is you are still safe and sound

If only I have the courage to go to you…

If only I have not hurt you as much as I had…

If only I have met you 17 years earlier before Kenny did…

Haiz

5 more hours to go before I have to get up and run orders

Because it is already Sunday. It is my Em Yeu day. My weekly day to run some orders and relive the memories of us that I have not forgotten

It’s okie Em Yeu if you no longer remember me, or the times we have shared

As long as I remember you, and our memories together will never become meaningless

You will forever be the Em Yeu whom I have truly loved and cared for in this life

I’ll try to sleep now. Sweet dreamz, my dear Em Yeu

Good night